I need you to lust over me.
At night, I want you to dream in sensation and in colors where I have my hands all over your body. My mouth searching for your soul while I’d trace the contours of your hips with my fingertips.
And when you’re awake, I need you to stop and stare in the middle of the day with your thoughts away with me. I’d press my lips against the valley of your chest, and from there my tongue will find its way up to yours.
Irog, I need you to lust over me.
I wonder how your lips would feel against my neck. I wonder how
I’m braver now, I can finally fight for you.
At least let me be your stars.
I will guide you through darkness. I will guide you in your night when all fire has turned to smoke and when you’re far away from city lights. Tell me where you need to be, and I’ll accompany you through the cold, through the whisper of the woods, and against the monsters lurking by. Don’t be afraid to fall asleep, you’ll fall under my light, and I’ll guard you until your sunrise.
And I’ll be gone when sunlight reaches your skin, because you know I live in the night, I can only live where you need me to be, and only where you need me to be. So, I’ll watch you from where you’ll never see the intensity of the fire I burn for you against the blue sky lit by your brightest Sun.
Please hold it still
You see, I’ve been in so many places
And I’ve slept in different rooms
Woke at other sides of sunrise
Way too often than I can catch up to
So you see you need to hold it still
Because I got lost way too much
In eyes of people who loved me less
When I knew I loved them whole
And I don’t know if it’s too much to ask
But please hold it carefully, because
I know too well the touch of calloused hands
Whose warmth I felt but couldnt make them feel mine
So you see, please hold it well,
Because I’ve been here and everywhere,
Been bruised and hurt everywhere, and I’m tired
To get mine broken, so I can pick it up all over again
So please hold it still, hold my heart
Like it’s your, because it’s yours
And I’ve travellled hard to get to where you are
So please hold it still, like it is yours
You knew this is as far as I’ll go
And we were meant to cross but drift apart
But I will always dream of you on the day
when we stood by the shore on a cloudy sky
and it feels like raining but it won’t
And the wind will bring waves to our feet
And the blue ocean will turn white
As they crash to rocks, and we watch in awe
And when I wake I’ll say I I loved the view
But in truth I loved it better when
I had you smiling next to me
Ive talked to my demons last night, they were angry when I failed. Said I could achieve so much more, be so much more. They said I could fly but my feet had only touched hills, when im supposed to be among the stars. So I felt them ache my heart, and bruise my soul and bring me down until I could feel my face at the cold, cold, cold floor. What was I supposed to do when fate seemed to be against me? I didn’t fight when I felt their hands push me away, but I knew I’d fall deeper with their strenght than what the world had done to me.
But The more I listened, the more their voices sounded sad than angry. Sounded like the world had been so unfair to us, sounded like they blamed me but cried to failures. Why were we not enough?
So i let the rain pour down from their eyes until it reached mine. I said calm down, we’ll fight better. We’ll be wiser and stronger,and we’ll learn from our mistakes and when we fall, we’ll rise again.
I’m sorry if I was going too fast, too quickly I didnt have time to read between the lines you wrote. It’s because I saw myself with you at the end of the road even when I was barely halfway. Like I knew for a brief moment where I should be, I should be in the space between your arms
But I know now we’re travelling at different paces, while I run, you walk. While I travel a straight path, yours is filled with crossroads- still uncertain if it will lead you to me. So take your time and live all you can, and I’ll let you go with a smile, while I pick up my heart and leave it again at someone else’s door until I’m finally welcomed home.
Hush now dear, youve been wiping away tears for weeks. I know you said it will stop, but we’ve been here before and youve said that a hundred times. Youve been chasing after shadows in the night we could barely see while the light we’ve been holding has long burnt out.
So why dont we let go of the love that doesnt belong to us. The longer we held the more broken we became. And it’s not long until we don’t recognize who we are when we’ve stooped so low to beg for a love long gone.
I remember the weight of your body pressed against mine as we slept all cuddled in my single bed. I can still smell your hair, and I can feel your heat like it was small flame in my chest, my limbs and my mouth. And I knew where I belong when you held me- It was in every moment I spent with you.